"7 months at best with treatment,they have nothing to offer me "............... said over a two sister cinnamon roll very matter of factually ....... When the question was you two have any plans?? Like for the week .. are ya gonna be in town long question......... The NO filter thing is so HARD to hear out loud ........... More so when the question should have been So what did Mayo say what are the results ?? coming from me not some one causally asking a "safe" question while i wrap another cinnamon roll for my dad when he gets back from the mall in her kitchen...... 5088 hours ....305,280 minutes ................18,316,800 seconds ..... Tick Tock Tick Tock.......................... The time started on December 17th tick tock tick tock............ What do you with that time that will matter?? What do you do with that time when she is NOT she??? what just what ???? what do you do when you already gave up and now you are running AWAY ????? When you don't wanna see her be someone else?? When your not strong enough when you don't want too when you cant ??????? tick tock tick tock ................................she picked no treatment time FASTER NOWWWWWW tick tock tick tock!!!!
Coming from my heart to yours...put it in Gods hands, cherish every moment, and remember the good times you've had with her. I love her so much....if there is anything that I can do, I'm here.
ReplyDeletei love your heart Char !!i wish i could ...could give it to god if i ONLY believed.......... i don't i wish i could i don't.... i am green for those that do ...to believe in something that is not.. to believe in the impossible to DREAM ...WISH... WANT ..HAVE .... the moments are not who she is ... she doesn't even like coffee or vodka LOL she is someone new now .............. she is not my mom she only looks like her and trys so HARD to be her.............
ReplyDeleteI wish I had just the right words to ease your pain, but words are only words and your pain is real and words can't take the pain away. Please give your Mom our love when you see her. Love you kiddo, and I hope and pray that one day you will be able to put it in Gods hands, it truly does help.
ReplyDeletei will she has made plans to go to the lodge tomorrow night !!!! Ü
ReplyDelete<3 Love you Rama, love your mamma and all the rest of your peeps. It pains me to know what you are going through. So sad that mom is too sick to go out and see her besty tonight. Maybe another time... Ever need to rant angry thoughts you text or message me. Venting is good :)
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