‎"Real loss only occurs when you lose something that you love more than yourself.

And here we go again. I can only hope that this is not the straw that breaks his back. All be it this "straw" is more like a ton of bricks...... To lose your best friend I cant even imagine . I just keep seeing his wonky walk his crazy ass hair .  They were such a pair those two together. What a team of crazy!! So random, so fun, so FUNNY*****










‎"Real loss only occurs when you lose something that you love more than yourself."  


this is his status right now. I lost it when i read it. My heart hurts for him. 


When someone dies its the people they leave behind that break my heart  The pain in their faces its just too much. I feel helpless to help them I know there is NOTHING i can say to make it better.......about 20 years ago A women who had just buried her 9 year old granddaughter said " The tears you cry are not for the dead they are for the living".... I didn't understand that statement then but I do now way way to well.........

Mental Health 5 cents or just Blog it!

This Blog is my 5Cents of mental health. Here is where i say what i cant say any place else. I don't have to spare other peoples  feelings i can say what i FEEL! I don't have to filter I GET to be MAD,SAD and stupidly HAPPY..... That being said I probably should have deleted a lot of the last 5 months posts but I did not and maybe later i will but not  now .NO Iam NOT losing my mind iam not depressed i have not gone over the edge  . This place is were i put ALL my crazy . It keeps the people I love,care,worry about alive Ü ~~ Its been stressful in so many ways the last 5 months. This has been a time of change, growth,strength, retrospect , and what ifs, ..... So don't over think what i write just roll with it let me be a BASKET case here. Besides this is way better then the gallon of Vodka that used to help. BAHHAAA!  With out this Blog and My person to talk too I honestly think i would have gone over the edge it would be so much easier . But NOBODY said life would be easy iam going with the theory that it will be worth it!!  And with that in mind Iam outta here to talk a walk on this BRISK,CRISP BEAUTIFUL winter morning!! .............

Some GOOD NEWS !!

WHOOOOP!!!

Seems that Grandchild numer 3 is in the works!! This is most exciting!! Due some time in July  Ü Iam toatally crossing my fingers for a girl!! Although the boys are ADDDDDRABLE I mean really look at these faces?? 

I secretly  OK OUT LOUDLY want a GIRL!!Even Kayden is on board with this idea.  Here is what his mom posted on Facebook "Kayden for the past month has literally at random times screamed at me "I want a baby sister, give me a baby sister!'. He's crazy and now he is also fully convinced that he is carrying his 'baby sister' in his tummy, haha."

This totally makes me giggle !!! 

They grew up DAMN IT!!

My BITCH'S  are graduating!! They grew up!  I shall miss them! Some of these girls i have coached since they were in 3rd grade!  Damn you have know idea HOW AMAZING it is to watch cute, adorable, mouthy ,children grow up to be BEAUTIFUL SMART MOUTHY WOMEN !!!  We weren't a typical  cheer squad ! BUT DAMN WE ARE GOOD!!  We had as a KICK ASS year!!! CHEER ALL OUT or don't fuck"en bother!! LOVE you  !! BELIEVE in whom you are!! BELIEVE in the future! These are the FIRST days of your life make the BEST days happen!!